Ever feel like hopeless, empty, worthless. If so I know what that’s like. I feel hopeless because it feels like I’m never gonna get over if you think differently and that I’m wrong I’m not stopping you please tell me. I feel empty because I mentally feel alone and broken. I feel worthless because I feel like I’m no good to anyone. Even though I know that’s not the truth but my mind doesn’t seem to care about that. My emotions are in control of me that’s not how it’s supposed to go. It’s supposed to be the other way around. Every once in a while I’ll start to think to myself. What is it going to be like when I get older. Will I still feel hopeless the answer is yes. The reason is because Im never gonna get back what was taken from me. But no matter how much I wish to change the past or erase my memories I can’t. I think one of the reasons why I’m mad at myself is cause when HE was doing all that stuff I gave up and just did nothing. I know it’s not my fault and there was nothing I could do. But to me that’s something that kills me thinking about and I wish I could of done things differently. Even though there was really nothing else I could do but I’m my mind tells me something else. I can’t stop it from controlling my thought and emotions I try to stop them and freeze them but it’s like I’m playing freeze tag and another memory get to it and unfreezes it. There’s nothing I can do it’s a never ending cycle that I can’t break. If you feel this way know you’re not the only one.
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Hope in the Sorrow 
First, I’m so impressed with how consistent you are with posting! Are you tired of my weird fan girl commenting yet? I can move to just liking if you want 🙂 I’m just so proud of your vulnerability.
Ok, so many thoughts on your post. 1. Feeling worthless is a lie that is so easy to believe when you’re already hurting. You are not worthless. Aside from your family, I can bet your readers would feel your words have helped a lot!
2. I know you regret not doing something in the past, but you were a child. There is absolutely no reason you should have known how to handle the situation. Nothing about it was or is your fault. That doesn’t mean it won’t cause pain, but remind yourself of your strength now. Even when you feel you have none.
3. I know you probably hear about the restoration that Jesus provides all the time, so I won’t get into it here, but He has made you a new creation. You are His, no matter what your past says.
Sheesh, this was long, sorry. You’re beautiful.
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That means a lot. Thank you so much and I’m not tired of everything you’re saying I love it.
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