Hardest year of my life

This year has gotten the best of me. I’ve been through a lot, especially the second semester of school. It has not been easy. My therapist suggested that my mom should put me on an antidepressant for my severe depression and anxiety. My mom of course agreed she’d try anything to help me cause i was getting unstable you could say. Once I got on the medication it was fine for a few days till I started to have panic attacks. My first panic attack was during my 6th period. It lasted about 10 mins, not bad right. I had another one about 5 mins later that one last about 25 mins. I had 2 in one day. The next day I had about 5 and they lasted anywhere from 15 to 1 hour long. I think my longest one was about 1 and 30 mins long. They kept happening for a while then I became unstable with the noise that started triggering them. I honestly didn’t know how much more I could take of them so I decided to just stop taking my medicine. I didn’t do it as I was supposed to, I just stopped and I went a little insane the next day. That wasn’t even all of it. While that was happening at school and home I had other things going I had to deal with that wasn’t very easy. Nothing is ever easy when you have a rough past and have anxiety, depression, PTSD, and a lot of other mental health disorders. All you need to know is that it’s not your fault. Just keep pushing through.