It might not get easier

wish I could say things get easier, but they don’t, they get harder. If you’re at the point where you are safe now just get ready for a long road of recovery. I was saved 7 years ago and I’m still struggling and I’m not gonna lie I feel like it gets harder and harder. I keep trying for my family and especially for my mom and my best friend that’s stayed with me through everything. There’s this quote that I think goes well with what I said “ Stop. Pause. Breathe. Cry if you must. But you must keep going.” If you need to cry that’s fine. Let it all out, it’s better than keeping it all in . There comes a point where it destroys you. It takes over you and turns you into someone that you don’t even recognize, trust me I know. It’ll make things worse. If it doesn’t work after talking about it and you don’t feel any different it’s ok, you’re not the only one. I know exactly what that feels like. Talking about it doesn’t make it go away or change anything . It’s supposed to make us feel better but that’s not true for everyone and that’s ok. It doesn’t always have to be. We just don’t feel like talking about it makes everything better or makes us feel good for letting things out. For me after talking about I feel the same as before I feel nothing, if I do it’s for a moment and that goes away and I feel dead on the inside. It feels like I haven’t said anything to anyone and it changes nothing for me. It changes things for the other person you’re telling this to it’ll give them a better understanding of what you’re going through. but it may not for you and that’s fine. Maybe they can even help in a way, and if they try and it doesn’t work it’s ok. It just shows that they care and want to help. Just know that you are not the only one feeling like that.