Be normal

Ever wonder what it would be like if you were normal. I wonder what it would be like to just be a normal teenager. To have normal teenage problems. Where all I have to worry about or be upset about are my grades or the guy that breaks up with me. Not trauma, depression, anxiety, or any mental disorders. But that’s not how it works. I wish it did because I’m tired of feeling the way I feel every day. Sometimes I start getting frustrated and take it out on my little sisters and it’s hard because they look up to me, but the only thing they can see is that I’m being mean to them and it kills me because there are times were I just can’t hold in my frustration and irritation, and I want to do bad but the smallest things get to me and I don’t know how to make it stop. My mom tells me to control it but it’s a lot easier said than done. I try so hard to keep my emotions in and I have meltdowns but lately I’ve kept it all in and it’s killing me from the inside out. But It’s getting to the point where I don’t even know how to be me. But it’s ok, all I can keep doing is try. If you feel this way know that you’re not the only one and all we can keep doing is try our best.